Sitting here now in my hospital bed resting with the surgery over earlier in the day. I’m able to walk gingerly but still on a Full Liquid Diet. Doctor says the surgery went just fine and I should be able to go home tomorrow if progress continues. I’m so relieved and thankful to my Lord in heaven for bringing me through and I’m confident I’m going to have a full recovery. Also, so blessed to have the best family and friends any man could possibly ask for.
My heartfelt thanks to all for your support and continued prayers.
Well … what was at one time very far off and almost out of my mind because it was so far off is now just around the corner and dominates my every thought. Can’t help but feel anxious about surgery this coming Tuesday but taking comfort in hopes that it will soon be over. Strange that at 62 years old this will be the first time in my life I’ve had surgery for anything. Never liked hospitals and thoughts of Doctors cutting off the wrong limb and removing the wrong organs comes to mind. Or perhaps contracting some mysterious illness from the plethora of bacteria that resides there.
Be still my mind and move my thoughts to happier days to come trusting in a God that loves me and waits patiently for me. May I not disappoint him no matter when we meet.
I have finally been scheduled for Prostate Cancer Surgery on May 28th 2013 at Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville Tennessee. That’s way longer than I want to wait but apparently that’s the next available slot so it will have to do. Hopeful the surgery will be successful in removing my prostate and all the cancer as well as not leaving me with any unwanted side effects. Time will tell … now more waiting.
At long last I got the call from my surgeon at Vanderbilt Hospital today and they have finally heard back from the doctor at John Hopkins Hospital in Maryland. He confirms my biopsy sample is in fact Cancer with a Gleason score of 3 + 3 or 6. He’s evidently a renowned Doctor in this field so looks like I will probably be moving forward with the surgery soon. My surgeon says there’s a 6 week wait to get in for prostate surgery. A shame we lost an entire month with the mix up on my biopsy but he says as long as we get the surgery done within 6 months of the initial diagnosis, which was Feb 1st it will be fine. Got to get it done. I’m sure everything will be fine. Just taking it one day at a time and trusting God will make it all good in the end.
Another week gone by and still no movement to get my biopsy sent to John Hopkins until today when I had to get involved and call Quest Lab directly myself. No excuse as to why no one had done anything for the last week on this only that they were just today going to be Fedex out. This time I have a tracking number. Patience is trying me. The good thing is I up for it and trusting God to keep me. Will just have to be my own best doctor and stay on my own case myself to make sure things get done.
Long story but it seems Vanderbilt Pathology Department and Quest labs are having a go at each other at my expense. There was some miss communication and miss handling of my biopsy between the two labs and a lot of finger pointing. Bottom line nothing has been sent to John Hopkins as of this date. Almost 3 weeks wasted waiting. They now think they have it straighten out and once again I’m being told my biopsy will be sent to John Hopkins next week. I think God is teaching me patience. What a mess! I wish someone would get their act together and do their job.
About a month gap here and there’s been some incredible changes in my life. I’ve taken a hard look at my life during the past month and I’ve given up on controlling it myself. I’ve dedicated my life to God and have started to make the hard choices in my life to prune away the bad things I do (yes we all sin). I even examined what I consider the good things in my life (motorcycle riding) that I do way too much of evaluating how it ranked in my life. Bible says in Luke 12:34 “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also”. My hearts been in the wrong place for way too long. I won’t change over night but now the one that can change me and order things in my life correctly is running the show.
After a couple of weeks visiting my daughter, Jessica, and my grandson Travis in South Dakota we headed back home to Tennessee in order to arrive home prior to my surgery consultation coming up on March 8th. My appointment day with the Surgeon at Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville had finally arrived. As I sat in the office awaiting for the surgeon to enter the room I was wondering when or how soon I could get it scheduled. My fears were quickly shifting to the hazards of surgery and the after affect it might cause and not so much the cancer as before. I had done extensive research and reading on the subject of Prostate Cancer and felt I knew just about what every possible out come could be. Most were positive but there were also the undesirable ones that do happen to a few men. Of course my crazy mind always gravitates to the negative.
As he enter the room and sits down we begin our discussion. To my amazement the first thing out of his mouth is that the Pathology Department at Vanderbilt looked at my samples from my biopsy and concluded that it wasn’t cancerous. They saw what the other lab (Quests Lab) saw that they were calling cancer but their conclusion was quite different. It turns out it was a very small percentage of the samples that were in question and they thought if it was cancer it was in the very earliest stages. He said he’s going to forward my biopsy samples to John Hopkins Hospital Pathology department in Maryland and get another opinion. They will make the final determination. I was in disbelief …. How could this be? Of course there is also a sampling error that has to be taken into consideration as well. Even with 12 samples from both sides of my prostate it is still possible they were hitting all around the cancer. Nevertheless this was the most incredible news to me and was very encouraging to know we weren’t going to be rushing into surgery right away. He said it would take about 2 weeks to hear back from John Hopkins and based on what their evaluation was we would either determine to either proceed with surgery or just go into a “watch and wait” and have another biopsy of my prostate done in a few months.
I’m so encouraged by this news and I am still waiting to hear back. Other good news is that if it turns out I do need surgery this surgeon, Joseph Smith at Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville, has performed over 4,000 prostrate surgeries … I had to ask him twice to make sure I heard him correctly. That’s way more than the majority of surgeons out there so I’ll be in good hands for sure if surgery is needed