Is it possible to have spiritual growth in your life without experiencing spiritual deficiencies and setbacks along the way? Realistically, I know better as we all fail at many of life’s endeavors no matter how sincere the effort. I know it’s not always going to be smooth sailing but I was at least hoping for a level playing field. Sin has stacked the deck against me and I continually succumb . A malaise pours over me and I fail to nurture my desire to be close to God. It seems if I’m not traveling in the one true direction I suddenly turn and start to travel even run faster in the wrong direction. Spiritual growth always seems to feel like I’m going up a big hill and spiritual droughts always seem to go easy and even picks up speed going downhill the wrong way. I wish it were the other way around … perhaps if I persevere some day it will be the other way around. Unfortunately, changing one’s attitude and direction is not as easy as applying brakes to a car to slow down enough to turn back in the other direction. Instead, it requires almost continual brake pressure on life’s distractions to ensure we don’t turn down the wrong street or go the wrong way because there are just so many opportunities to do so. Things of this world seem so bright and shiny and I often times feel like an insect flying towards the light, fascinated by it’s brillance, but instead of it being the light of God it’s a bug zapper instead and I’m often shocked when I hit it and find out there was nothing there after all but my destruction.