Cloud of despair seems to be hovering around me today. Not sure where it comes from but it is zapping me of all my desires for anything … even my ability to nurture my spiritual needs seems to be running on empty. No rhyme or reason but the feeling is so very real and difficult to shake. Defies explanation or examination and I’ve felt it coming on now for a few days but have been unable to head it off. Today it seems to have really settled in to my conciseness and won’t let go. Must plod along forcing my actions while battling my mind as to why the reluctance and apathy. I think this is the “new” depression or the old depression manifesting itself in a new form to bring me back to where I was. Stay the course there really is no other choice.