Sitting here this morning and waiting for the phone call from the Doctor I’m so nervous I can hardly sit still. Finally around noon the nurse calls and says the Doctor is requesting another procedure … this time an X-ray of my Femoral Neck bone on the left side of my pelvis. We trudge to his office in Clarksville, grab the paperwork, head to the hospital, have the x-ray done and return home. They made me an appointment to come into the office for tomorrow morning at 9:30 a.m. so hopefully then I’ll know the details of the results of all these tests, scans and x-rays.
Today’s request just confirms, for my uncontrollable mind, that the cancer has probably spread perhaps into my bones at that location. I really don’t know for sure I’m just listening to my stupid mind telling me it’s more bad news. I won’t know for sure until I go into his office tomorrow morning and he tells me. He’s also going to have to transfer my case to another Urologist since he will be retiring the next day, Friday Feb 8th.
I did some more reading tonight on Prostate Cancer but it really caused me to break down some so I stopped. This is so tough to comprehend and accept. It just doesn’t seem real. It’s getting tougher and tougher to keep a dry eye and not fret about the future. Tomorrow, tomorrow why do I worry so much about you when there is today, today.
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” … Matthew Chapter 6 Verse 34